Progress

I feel sick
Sick of life and all things that are part of it
I am hurt
Hurt by people that shouldn't be able to hurt me but what can i say they are people just like me
I am empty
Empty like a urn with nothing and no one to fill it
I have gone numb
So numb because it is to hard to feel anything
I got lost
Lost in the world because my map did not have enough paths for me to take
I am blind
Blinded my my pride, ambition, principles,virtues, and ideas of how the world should be
I had hope
Hope that i had found my way but there is a bridge before that i do not have the tools at present to cross
I want love
Not love to complete me but a love that will compliment and balance my unbalanced nature
I have dreams
The dream are now blurry and distorted by all the chaos and struggle that surrounds me
I have power
Power that has becaome more of a curse than a blessing that i can not control

I have looked into to myself to see all these thing and i feel like i am evolving as a person but if evolution is a sign of progress, why do i feel like i am two steps behind?