The cries of a child of the night

Vampires don't like to fall in love because they don't want to pass the curse
that's how I feel sometimes
So scared of passing on my burdens forever changing their life
this consideration was not taken by those before me
so now I'm just an addition to those who haunts the night
  my still broken heart holding me back even more
because rejection is hard enough without feeling as though you are tainted
This vampire does not want to fall in love because it no longer seems worth fight
shattered hearts line the streets because people can be honest with what they want and desire and when they are , they are shunned and treated abnormal
Those find love are cursed to struggle based on circumstances as though hardship is the price for happiness
people take for granted the simple things the others are not able to attain or even allowed
why would I walk into the sun to see its beauty only to know I will see it long enough to burn

Sending Off a Sister I Never Met..... Be at peace Sahara Davenport

Be a peace fallen sister
Bound to many seen and unseen
Both known and unknown to you
Unity in this art and beauty that is drag

Let this family of illusionist celebrate
The life you live and the work you have done longer than the mourn the lost
And continue on as you would

Let us come together
Beyond drama and shade
Connection in spirit and community
That shall strengthen us in this time of sadness

As you join the choir of our angels in heaven
Willie, Octavia, Lorena, Venus, Paris, And all shall welcome you with open arms at the pearly gates
While you help them prepare a place for us all reach a place of peace and GO OFF until time ends.

Working towards the final piece.

I write about heartache and lost love
Not because I am jaded
But because it gets the negativity out of me to make room for when I find the one destined for me.

My life is 75% under my control: work, health, and finance
Now I need to work on my last piece to the puzzle

All of my past missteps in love
Have been lesson preparing me
Trained and forge by in fire fueled by the shards of a broken heart

When he comes I will be ready willing and waiting
To start over for what may not be the last time
Nothing worth having is obtain without risk
And even if he is another teacher in my education, any attempt is a step in the right direction.