Death Wish

As the glare of my tears blurs my vision
I see my love for you as clearly as the day I professed the words before you
But just because it lingers does not mean it was ever mean to be
I gave you access to my world and forgot to protect its greatest treasure which is me

When I see you I feel ill with emotions like pain anger hatred and confusion
It pains me that you can't see the anger in my eyes and the hatred that you wrought leaving me confuse my your illusion

Under garb and guise of man you shelter fear and doubt
And you allow them pull the strings as you dance about

I spoke to life a reality the I held close to my heart hoping to rewrite the heavens beside you
End the end the curtain was drawn, in this revelation I wish my love would have died right along with the trust I had for you
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Mistitled

The jewels have lost there luster
All that glittered has gone dull
As the sun peers through the clouds all it highlights are the flaws and missteps
Because that is all that is left when I fall in love

I feel like a trickster
I coax feelings out of people that they can not bear to acknowledge
And when me hex wears off I am the one left heart broken because I felt the same for real!

I have mastered bending the fates and will of other through my wisdom and counsel
So with all that I know, will this profound incite why do I always miss the market

Is this the cost my soul has to pay for the sins of my past life
Am I to find and preserve love for the world and never to have it for myself

Often I get called an angel for my grace before many things
But the title is one I am not worthy of
For I am not nearly selfless enough to live my love alone without having someone to wake next to and let the first words I say to them be "I LOVE YOU"
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