Patience and Time

The rings of Saturn would not be precious enough to place on your finger to express my love for you
There would need to be a paradise greater than heaven for what would be our honeymoon
There need to be a language beyond man's comprehension for the vows I would speak on our wedding day just to convey the depths of my feeling for you

Until they day when my perfect ways to give my self to you before the world
Wed before our family, friends, and forces of nature
I will hold on to hope and have faith in destiny
For I am still waiting to find you

9:45am

Tuesday March 25, 2013
Brooklyn, N.Y.
I waited to see if you got to the train on time today
9:45am every weekday, same spot with a black gym bag, sweats, and cross trainers
I am on my way to work with my leather bag and you on the way to your work out
We never actually speak outside of saying "good morning" or mutual quips of frustration over the late train
But this one day, at 9:45am I see you running for dear life before the train pulls off
I take a stand that day and hold the door for you which I normally don't do
We had previously ever so briefly spoke about hating people that do that
But today something came over me and that was the begin of something on seen in the movies

Sunday June 30, 2013 New York, N.Y.
As I yawn and wipe the crust from my eyesi look at the clock
9:45am
Today is Gay Pride and having decided to avoid the brunch chaos inherent to the day we decide to stay in until noon
The day before you were at the gym without me which was odd since you talked me into getting a membership and Saturday was the only day we went together because it was my only day off
I went to the market and got bacon (for me), eggs, cheese, turkey sausage (for you), croissants, orange juicen and cheap champagne (sorry) and decide to suprisr you with brunch
Well to my shock, once I get my head in order I realize you are not next to me and my entire apartment smells like burnt flesh
To my horror and amusement, you saw my purchases and decided to make us breakfast....but you don't know how to cook at all!
You got up an hour early, knowing I would be up by 9:45am

Saturday May 31, 2018 Atlanta, GA
The sun beats through the curtains into the suite on the 7th floor of this gorgeous Atlanta hotel
9:45am
I heard the door connecting the to room try to open
The little bar lock stops it
"Babe, open the door" I hear through the opening
"Ummm, No! We are getting married in a few go start getting ready" I replied
Today is the big day, and I want it to be perfect!
It has only been a little over a year and a half and we have had our problems, but we made it!
I am healthy, you are at peace, and we are ready to compete the chain
After 12:30pm today we will be ______-______
You can be on my 401K, I can sign the papers to help you get you paperwork in order for your citizenship
But before than we not to get our butts downstairs before our mother beat us both with in a inches of life

Winter 2075
This room got cold and dark
I see a bright light
I see a figure come towards me
I hear my mom's voice
"Baby, it's time"
Behind her I see my Grandmothers and grandfathers
As I real what has happened I smile because I know you were by my side until the end
You have all that you need because we we plan for the other to be taken care of should something happen
All that was ours is now yours until we meet on the other side
Then it will go towards the beautiful child we raised
Now let me rest and prepare to live into eternity with you.....

This is only one possible outcome that will result from full marriage equality
They wont all me so perfect, but everyone deserves the right to write their own love story whether it ends happily ever after or is an epic tragedy!

Mindful

Rewrite the world and let acceptance be the standard we live by
Let the American Dream be about and actualy dream not a delusion
Find peace in knowing that you have let others live as they are destined
Be joyful in the fact no ones judgement matters save tjose you love

Parents, be kind to your children though they are not as they are in your fairy tale
Children, remember you parent are human and were once children as well
Be not judgemental for actions when you know not the motives
There are reason and methods to the madness you my not understand

Be to your neighbors as you want them to be with you
Know them for who they are not for how they appear
Don't let social constraints blur you vision to what could open doors
Don't fear what lies beyond the threshold for it may be a pleasant surprise

Look not to who someone love or beds with
Just be aware of how they deal with you and focus on that
As long as the path they walk is one of a good heart
Let that walk be as fierce as the fires of Hades

See that young lady for her mind
The shortness of her hem line only exposes the physicality of her beauty
Do not touch what is not offered or given freely
Once the invitation is enacted respect the treasure that is before you

Respect that struggling young man in his endeavors
For you know not the responsibilities that weigh on his shoulders
Regardless of how lowly the job seems
So long as he does no harm to others show him the seem graciousness as you would a king

Do not give in to the temptations of a pack mentality
Think for yourself and try to do so before you speak
Make sure the words that leave your mouth are your words and you can defend them
Never allow you self to say anothers words or regret the transgressions of your own tongue

Repression and Waiting

I wish I could speak my truth to you
For once fear consumes me because I don't think I am worthy of you
You bring a light to the world that is blinding because I gaze upon you raw eyed and exposed
You voice have a power that deafens me for I listen beyond your words and hear your souls
Your scent intoxicates me to the point of a drunken stupor because I refuse to come up for air

I will always stand perched and composed as not to hint to my intentions
I keep a safe distant so that I am not tempted to reach for what is not mine and never let it go
I shall bind my tongue as my words are to purely innocent for this world for I see and ideal manifested physically in you and mankind is not prepared for one to be so open

I dear not use that deadly phrase that shatters walls and sinks ships; Starts wars and ends lives
For say I....... or I am in........ before it is proven to be reality rather than infatuation is giving power and governance to someone who may not want of deserve the reigns to a life not meant for them
In turn I will bide my time and wait for if it is not for you then you will be another piece to the templates design.

Better to wait a lifetime for the right one the waste time and keep trying for the next one I guess

The Weight of Silence

Speak not the truth because it forces you to cut the strings that's suspend the facade you're forced to cast for others
Say not what lies in your depth because people will drown in the reality
Do not confess what dwells in you heart for those feelings will most likely end up homeless
Never share those things that burden your soul because it is not human nature to help others carry there load
Life is almost easier it you remain silent and blend in to the crowd

Undoing the spell

I can't say what I am thinking because I can't tell if it is emotion or illusions
Rhythm driven your movements like the sea
Casting a spell with every movement on everyone including me
I try to keep my distant so no one can see
Because of my past my words can go free
Scarred by circumstances I doubt I could be

I coldly stand watching fear binds my thoughts
But already in your gravitational pull I habe already been caught
Release from the thrall that you did not know I what I ask
Just break my heart so I can hurt and heal
Another chance to remember what it means to feel