Repression and Waiting

I wish I could speak my truth to you
For once fear consumes me because I don't think I am worthy of you
You bring a light to the world that is blinding because I gaze upon you raw eyed and exposed
You voice have a power that deafens me for I listen beyond your words and hear your souls
Your scent intoxicates me to the point of a drunken stupor because I refuse to come up for air

I will always stand perched and composed as not to hint to my intentions
I keep a safe distant so that I am not tempted to reach for what is not mine and never let it go
I shall bind my tongue as my words are to purely innocent for this world for I see and ideal manifested physically in you and mankind is not prepared for one to be so open

I dear not use that deadly phrase that shatters walls and sinks ships; Starts wars and ends lives
For say I....... or I am in........ before it is proven to be reality rather than infatuation is giving power and governance to someone who may not want of deserve the reigns to a life not meant for them
In turn I will bide my time and wait for if it is not for you then you will be another piece to the templates design.

Better to wait a lifetime for the right one the waste time and keep trying for the next one I guess

The Weight of Silence

Speak not the truth because it forces you to cut the strings that's suspend the facade you're forced to cast for others
Say not what lies in your depth because people will drown in the reality
Do not confess what dwells in you heart for those feelings will most likely end up homeless
Never share those things that burden your soul because it is not human nature to help others carry there load
Life is almost easier it you remain silent and blend in to the crowd

Undoing the spell

I can't say what I am thinking because I can't tell if it is emotion or illusions
Rhythm driven your movements like the sea
Casting a spell with every movement on everyone including me
I try to keep my distant so no one can see
Because of my past my words can go free
Scarred by circumstances I doubt I could be

I coldly stand watching fear binds my thoughts
But already in your gravitational pull I habe already been caught
Release from the thrall that you did not know I what I ask
Just break my heart so I can hurt and heal
Another chance to remember what it means to feel

New Year's Statement

I will not partake the tradition of New Year's resolutions because I resolve to do nothing but love and be who I am
what I will do is make a statement for the new year
I will not give out my heart to those ones are either in friendship or love
I will keep those who care about me closer regardless of distance or time
I will actively seek companionship but allow fate to run its course
I will temper my judgements with both instinct and reason
I will finish on the path I have started because I have worked very hard to get here
I shall conquer my fears of this disease so does not control my life
I will start to honor myself as much if not more that honor others
I will demand respect equal to the amount that I naturally command
I will try to expand my social circle because that is where you have true life lessons through learning of the experiences of others
I will continue to defy people expectations and shatter your preconceived notions of who and what I am
I will continue to practice refine and exhibit my talents and crafts for the world

2012 was a year of learning  accomplishments heartbreak rediscovery and struggle but it will not be forgotten or taken for granted is another chapter in life this is now written to Destiny's Register and is now closed to begin a new

as for 2013 the gates now open the water should come rushing through and my feet are firmly planted as my heart is secure so all I will say now is bring it on!

I am Libra

I am Libra

My heart is empty

Yet it overflows with doubt

I have things in abundance

Yet I go without

Many times blessed

Yet I every live cursed

Hope has brought me this far

But I fear for the worse

My wounds heal quickly

Yet a deep pain endure

My body can be mended by healers

Yet the poison in my soul has now cure

Free to come and go as I please

Yet bound by circumstances I cannot appease

I am Libra, born of the stars

Scales of justice and balance

While I try to keep the world in line

Within my self I can't find balance

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The World According To Peachez: I am still here

The World According To Peachez: I am still here

I am still here

I fight to keep you out of my head
but you seem to keep clawling back in
You broke my heart into shards
Yet you believe we can still be friends
honesty is all I asked but you could not provide
the truth is what I saught from you but all you did was hide
now I dwell with sleepless night wondering to myself why
angry at my weakness because you're not worth the tears I cried 
forgiveness is not far from my heart for I still hold you dear
But we will never reach that point until you can move past your fears