One Sidedness

I lie awake at night waiting, hoping, wondering: When will it be my turn?

Wishing that when I close my eyes and sleep, I will wake with my love next to me
But as dawn peaks through the window, all I feel is vacancy

His presents alludes me, those who have come are the fool's gold to my prospects
Confusion abounds because there are no hard and fast rules to the game

Forplay to my soul with no climax; a burning in my heart with no warmth

I feel most strongly about this because I can not control it

There is no map or pill or manual to this, so I feel lost
I know how to be in love and show my affections. It is just a matter of finding some that will do the same towards me and end this one sidedness
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Declaration of Controlled Impulsion

I write what I feel and put it out in the word with no regrets
So long as I hurt no one, why hold back?

I can and will no longer be bound by false honesty and polite truth
Why bother? So people like me or so I don't have to hear the opinion of others? F U!

I don't wear my heart on my sleeve, it is the whole damn outfit
In this case the clothes do make the man!

I bear my soul to the world on page and cast it out on this "net" hoping to stimulate others to face their truth(s)
But as like some people will push a plate away is everything is not cover in sugar!

When it come to "like" (that is just before love) I "like" hard only to "fall" harder
I am not afraid of a few bumps, bruises, and scrapes because I know eventually someone will be there to catch me

I don't believe in secrets because it is a polite word for lies
I prefer guarded surprises because eventually someone will find out.

In my own life I hide little to nothing because I refuse to close my self off to those I care for
For the few things I do not share immediately, it is only a matter of time before I send out a memo

I impulsively write my feeling to share with the world so that I can be free
All those who know me a person know that I say what I mean and they can that all I know how to be is me

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Surrender Vs. Giving up

There is a difference between surrender and giving up

When you surrender, you acknowledge you have been bested and submit with honor
When you have given up, you roll over with out having put up a fight

When you surrender, there is a release because you have done your best
When you give up, you are imprisoned by doubt and question of what you should have done differently

You surrender you whole heart when it has been conquered by real love
You give up your body to delusions of love and lust

You surrender you soul to a higher power to find strength and peace
You give up hope when you have lost faith and feel trapped

You surrender to the guidance of family and friends when you need support through struggles
You give up and give in to the will of unsavory characters because it is easier to follow than lead your own life

You surrender to the power within you when you reach for your destiny
You give up on yourself when can look in the mirror because you fear what looks back at you

So... Will you stand up and wave the white flag (surrender)
Or
Lay there and do nothing (give up)
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Invite to a late show

Shadows dance performing a ballet of darkness
The candle light illuminates the wall to set the stage
My bed the opera box where I am perched viewing the show
My kitchen a personal concession stand
No ushers no valets my own solitary theatre in the night
A moonlit recital choreographed for my soul

I have an extra seat would you like to join me?
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El Fuego Latino

Universally exotic
As diverse as the fish in the warm Caribbean Sea
Language so sultry
Rolling "R"s and an accent that can burn your soul
A music and sound for every emotion
Dances that glide like the wind moving hips like waves on the beaches

This is the latino spirit
The fire in their blood the fuel them
From every Island, country, village, and neighborhood
It burn bright and strong
As I watch it from the outside, I wait to have its warmth in me
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Transformation of a Sleepless Night

Sleepless nights make you long for another body next to you
As person to be to be a lover, friend, and everything in between
Sleepless nights leave you craving a soul to connect to
That spirit meant to align with yours as impossible as it seems
Sleepless nights leave my heart calling out
For it has been broken and needs to healed
Sleepless nights make my mind racing
Trying to find you, waiting for your identity to be revealed
Sleepless night turn into drowsing mornings turn into cranky days turn into lonely evenings and back into sleepless nights
Hopefully soon the routine will be broken, and those sleepless night will turn into restful nights into peaceful mornings into productive days into lovely evenings and then into a beautiful night with someone I love
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Idealistic Wisdom of a Genius

My wisdom is wasted
For the world is not aware
The taint of politics, religion, hate, and greed stain the lenses which humanity sees life

They worry about the rich paying too much in taxes
While there are so many that are out of work

You praise and worship a god that is about love and hope
But you condemn those who hope to show their love to the world because of your blinded faith

They mask hate behind policy and procedure
But the truth can be seen in their empty conviction

The need for money has made us greedy and blind
We can't see what is important in life and striving for false perfection

Forsaken with idealistic genius that agreed my many
Those close to me that mean the most
If only our worlds were left in our circles maybe just maybe we would have "world peace "
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