Repentance to Fate

I know it sounds 1 sided when I ask, why gender matter?
Because the answer I want oeanw in my favor
Love is love is my wholehearted belief
But I love male and wants a man's love in return
A woman can intrigue me, but she will not sustain me
My first taste of love was from a girl that grew to a beautiful woman
But that is before I learned my truth and accepted my reality

I issue an apology to those I have tried to force into my light
All find themselves in their own time
And we find the one we are meant for at the right time
I may have set back the progression of destiny with my rushed agenda
So desperate to live my story I dishonored those of other

I seek forgiveness for my transgressions
For I am but a a man who has needs and desires
I need a companion who is on equal terms with me
I want a man who can love me openly and honestly
So to achieve this I must learn not to force Destiny's hand