On deaf ears

As I lay in the darkness of the night my mind wonders what if?
A question I asked before during and after us
The answer was never found because of your ignorance fear indifference confusion or some combination of them all
You were given the reigns to a force few are offer and even fewer can tame yet you dismissed it without even explaining why
An apology is a cowards reasoning for running away from the truth that may be hard or painfully
When offered what you said you wanted you shuttered when you saw the concept come to fruition and realize real life requires work
As hard as I try to forgive and forget I can't because out of all the tragedies let in the space of my heart you shatter more than the metaphor but also the spirit that it held
I truly said I love you and meant it from a place I had never felt before beyond the body that I desired the eyes that melted the frozen armor that I wear the touch that still my even motion and the voice that soothed my fear
I spoke words to you the came from depth deep the the most ancient seas it is truly a pity though that they fell on deaf ears