Suicidal

Suicide to me is not the taking of your Physical life
It is the point when you give up on your destiny and purpose
And use death as your exit strategy.

I feel suicidal but i don't wish to die
I just feel like i have run out of options to achieve the goal i want at this point
And death will never be an option.

My destiny has been blurred as of lately
And I don't know how to clear my vision
The path before me is a mystery that i can not solve.

No knives to my wrist
No pills down my throat
No rope on my neck
I will not stand on a ledge
But i have commited suicide and need to be brought back to life.