Warning not for the weak spirited or faint of heart. I write what is on my heart and in my soul!
Sunday, September 30, 2012
Shatter the box
Filled with solemn fear
The box is empty
But to its edge hope endears
Bound by chains no one can see
Obviously there set on place by culture and society
With progress in tow
Medicine and technology
So bound are advances our humanity
Limiting what we can become by submitting to conformity
Saturday, September 29, 2012
Worse way out
But I orchestrate my own failures
I seek love from those out of my reach prayer they will see beyond what is obvious and evident a take in what lies within
I am sought out by those who dwell in the shadows for they fear the truth that exist in the light, and some inside is weaken by the allure of saving a soul that often leave me hurt in the end
I am a balance of who I am and what I am, but I can never convey the whole picture beyond thumbnail on a screen.
I say all this hoping it falls upon fates ear and it is seen fit to correct this wrinkle in her tapestry, because they worse way to die is not drowning, being murdered, or diseased it is actually leaving this world alone not having ever know love in this life
Sunday, September 16, 2012
Faithful clarity
I saw church and other places of worship as stone, wood, and steal constructs the housed shame, lies, hypocrisy, abuse, and if you baptist fish dinners
Felt the people "worshiped" because that is what the were programmed to do: Put on something nice, sing and shout around people (the majority of whom you don't know or for that matter like), pray prayers void of conviction because instead or surrendering to your believes you honor them at your on convenience, paying a tithe that you don't understand the concept of, listening to scripture that you don't even apply to your life, then saying a hallow amen and leaving, going back to your everyday life having got your "fix".
In my separation from religion I was able to find FAITH! Being able to go to God as you are: flawed, broken, lost, and in need, and finding that there is a way. Faith let's you be honest unbound by "proper church etiquette" and you find real answers and peace through it without the bias thought and opinions of a religious leader who may be swayed to thing a certain way because of their own personal views, issue, or struggle.
Faith allowed a young, gay, black man to find the strength to live his life for him and not the will or vision of others
Faith allows you to believe that love exist after heartache, broken trust, and abuse
Faith motivates you to follow your heart when other doubt you destination
Faith will give you the courage to fight any disease, conflict, circumstance,, or obstacle that bars your path to you destiny
Faith will draw people to you that are there for the real you with out judgement, secret motivations, or envy of who you are, what you do, what you have, or where you are going in life.
So to sum this up......
There was a point when I gave up on religion, not god because he has brought me a long way. When I finally gave up on the illusion of religion, I found FAITH and my vision got much much clearer
Wednesday, September 12, 2012
Love beyond fear
Ámame por que yo no soy lo que soy. Puede que sea un hombre, pero yo soy amable y cariñoso. Puedo estar infectada, pero yo soy más fuerte que mis circunstancias. Puedo ser joven, pero mi alma es muy antigua. Puede que no sea el más masculino, pero soy honesto y justo adelante con mi verdad. Puedo ser fuerte, pero voy a estar en silencio en el presente de amor verdadero. No tengas miedo de cómo el mundo va a ver a mi lado, para que la única opinión que importa es la reflejada en el espejo y no debes temer que tampoco.
Translation
Love me for who I am not what I am. I may be a man, but I am kind and loving. I may be infected, but I am stronger that my circumstances. I may be young, but my soul is ancient. I may not be the most masculine, but I am honest and forth right with my truth. I may be loud but I will be silent in the present of true love. Do not fear how the world will view you next to me, for the only opinion that matters is the one reflected in the mirror and you should not fear that one either.
Lesson learned of love
I see you everywhere I go
Like a speck in my eye that I can't get out
Your presents lingers in my every though
I remain in a constant haze wondering what if
Sunday, September 9, 2012
Evolution of an Angel
I was the lonely child reading in corner creating his own reality, for the worldwide lives in cannot accept him as he is
I grew to the poet who wrote of thing beyond his years because he bore an old soul, with wisdom surpassing his years
I then became a force of nature driven to a goal that I refused give up on, even when faith and hope were impossible concept
I turn into an emissary of vice and decadence, mastering and nourished by greed, lust, wrath and vanity
I fell from my hard earned place in the stars and was humbled, beginning again as though reborn into this world
I endure struggle, rejection, heartache, and failure, my soul being reforged and fortified in flames of life hotter than 7 suns
I rose like a phoenix from the ashes and soared towards the skies, a light radiating hoping to guy other on their journey
Darkness seeped in to my flesh, posing not only my body but my heart and soul
Fate issue me a challenge, I accepted and attacked with Spartan fury and the Muses grace
Now on wings won with determination, I continue to fight. Not only to maintain what I have achieved, but to then surpass this angelic evolution!